Tonight at work, I just kept thinking of the examples Christ sets for us and the things He asks of us. Then I thought of how far I am from the woman God desires me to be....the "Christ like" person He calls me (every believer) to be. So many cultural saturations into my life, selfish blotches smothering me and yet, He wants me to go against those things. In many ways, He wants me to think in ways I have never thought before. How does one do this?!?! I began praying ,while riding up and down in the elevator, cleaning the bathrooms and lockerrooms at the Y. "Jesus, I dont know how to be the woman you are asking me to be. I dont know how to be something that was never ingraned in me growing up or to think in a way that is beyond my natural way of thinking. I dont know how to love like You, deeper and selflessly, more than I can comprehend." Honestly, I started feeling kind of hopeless. How can I do what I have never done before and be who I dont know how to be?!?! It was about my 5th ride down in the elevator that the verse, "He who began a good work in you is faithful to complete it" came to my mind.
Aha! That is how. Suddenly it didnt feel so hopeless anymore. All I can do is keep coming to Jesus, asking the Holy Spirit to keep me soft, that I would respond to His leadings. What He says He will do, He is faithful to do! He will complete what He began. I'm just a work in progress....
