"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times."
Isn't it funny how when the "best of times" are present, we feel as though God is all around us. It seems as though His hand is leading and providing, amazing us with all He is able to do! Yet as soon as the wind turns cold, the dark skies roll in, and the birds stop chirping, we feel as though God has abandoned us. If you've read all of my blogs, you will notice a drastic change in my tone of writing a couple months ago. I went from the "best of times" to the "worst of times". Many things began to happen, subtle pressures to fix the unfixable, and circumstances far from my control that left me feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders. I called out to God many times and heard nothing. Why?
It was one of the darkest nights for me, feeling as though I was in this all alone, that I called a friend in Texas. I hadnt spoken with her in almost a year, yet for some reason her name dropped into my mind. God gave her the gift of counceling and began asking me what has been going on. In the middle of the conversation she said, "Holly, do you feel as though God has left you?". I started to cry so hard. She hit the nail on the head: The God I love, who I will follow all my days, has abandoned me. I didnt understand what I had done wrong. These words she made me promise to write down and memorize. Its God's promise to us: "I will NEVER leave you or forsake you" [no matter how dark the skies are in your life].
At that moment, it was as though the light had switched on and I KNEW, He really hadnt abandoned me...not even for one second. I was so blinded by what burdens I chose to cling to and control, that I missed Him right there with me the whole time.
Is it really that simple? I believe it is. When all feels hopeless, the winds turn cold, or the dark skies start rolling in...that's when we need to remember His promise to us: " I will NEVER leave you or forsake you". It really is that simple.
